Wednesday, February 24, 2010

No Time For Negativity

OK this is the deal. I realize that when I started this blog, I said that I was looking forward to the accountability, but I was not expecting people to be so nasty. I realize that a lot of you have been super supportive, but I will not stand for people bringing my daughter into this. Very few of you know me personally, so I am just words on a screen to you, but make no mistake, I am flesh and blood, and I have feelings. The comments on my blog just kept getting more and more ridiculous, and frankly I am just done with all of the negativity. I am not giving up on me, but I am choosing to surround myself with people that care about and support me. People that encourage me and build me up. This will be my last post, but I am continuing with my weight loss goals. Thanks to those of you that have truly been supportive, and good luck to those of you that are struggling with weight loss.

Friday, January 8, 2010

Decisions Decisions...

Well, it has been a rough couple of weeks. In the past, going to work was a no brainer. I have held a steady job in one form or another since I was 16. Now, going back to work is the worst thing I can think of. How do you put a price on the peace of mind that your child is safe and well cared for? Why would I pay someone to do the job that I want to do and I already do for free? I have been struggling with these thoughts for a while now, and even though I have been submitting my resume and putting myself out there, I am nauseated by the thought of someone else caring for my daughter. I know it has been a couple of weeks since I last posted, but Eddie and I have been trying to make some life altering decisions, and this is the first time since Amelia was born that we have reached such a major crossroads. Normally we are full speed ahead…no stopping, no slowing down, but now, with a baby under foot, everything has changed. Decisions that would have been no problem in the past now leave us gut wrenched, running for the Pepto! The things people don’t tell you about parenthood! Who would think that such a little person can change you so profoundly?

I have decided to take a hiatus from boot camp for a while, because that reality is that I have been spending too much money in gas just going back and forth, and while there is definite value in the knowledge Marilyn has, I could no longer justify the money spent each week when we are struggling so much just to pay our basic bills. I do plan to stay on track with eating and exercise, I am just going to enlist the support of my husband, and we will get up in the mornings and go for a walk, or do some exercise here. I got an awesome workout set for Christmas. It has a balance ball, a medicine ball, and resistance bands. I will just have to break out the palliates DVD and get to work. I am happy to report that I lost 5 pounds last week as of Tuesday (for those of you that are keeping track, the math doesn’t add up because I gained 3 pounds over the week of Christmas. So, I went from 393 to 385 to 388, and then to 383…I have been on a bit of a roller coaster) I am almost out of the 380’s, and I am looking forward to the 370’s. I was down to 374 when I got pregnant with Amelia, so I Am almost back to my pre-pregnancy weight…woohoo!

Food Today:
Breakfast: Cheerios with 2% milk
Lunch: Turkey and Swiss on wheat with Mayo with Olive Oil (a much better alternative than light mayo)
Snack: 100 calorie yogurt pretzels
Dinner: Veggie Omelet with a side of grapes and a tangerine

I also have a favor to ask. Could each of you please post a low calorie, low fat recipe that I can make for under 10 dollars. I am finding it difficult to maintain a food budget, and I could really use some advice. Something that would also provide leftovers would be ideal. I hope this post finds you well. Have a terrific weekend. XOXOXOXO